Why Do I Love Her??????

Technically speaking,I don't know why i am writing this.I mean,when i chose to write over my love,that time i don't know why..i had butterflies in my stomach.And surely they weren't out of nervousness,but because of the dilemma i had..not over a thought,but over an argument...between my heart and my brain.And when these two components of your body have a quarrel,only thing left to do is...... worry!!!

Let me tell you an interesting fact..I love a girl..ok,there isn't much interesting stuff in that.But more important thing is,she doesn't love me.

"What is he trying to convey??".

I know,most of you would be having the same notion by now.But please,i would request your gracious time,as i am a bit slow in unfolding myself.

So,rather than wasting much of your time,i would get started..As if,no one is paying me here per word!!!

Well,this isn't an article nor a story..but an "ARTORY".Was just trying to be a bit cute.

This article or a story or an "ARTORY",revolves around my life and the girl whom i love.How i met her,i couldn't understand,but she was there to stay,that much i understood.It wasn't much after i came to know her,was when i knew..I am in love with her.And surely,rather then thinking anything,i told her everything.

"You aren't in love,its a mere infactuation",a mere reply of her.

She thought she knew me better then me,myself.But that was first time i realized,i hadn't made any mistake.I was in love,whether she accepts it or not.As time went by,my feelings grew stronger,but there weren't any signs of her remoulding her thoughts.Though the best part i knew was,that one day she would!!!

Everyone around tried to demoralize me from my one sided love path,but i was like that bull,which runs over the red scarf,whether he hits it or not.I knew,there isn't stopping myself from this track,until and unless my train gets derailed.She had each and every feeling for me except the one i expected.Though it never pushed me to force my will on her.

For the first time in my life,i felt the urgency of dying when she told me about the person she loves..and certainly,it wasn't me.

"Choose either him or me".

This was the first thing that popped up in my mind which i wanted to say to her.But i don't know,something within me pulled me back.Whether it was my lost heart which felt deprived of the right to say anything to her,or my excess love for her,who wanted to stay close to her even as a lost lover!!

Now i know why lacs of youngsters committ suicide over lost love.Because now i can feel that pain and sense of loneliness.Now i know,how it feels to be compared with someone else who according others is superior then you.And in my case,whomsoever she compares me with,is superior then me in her ways.Whether he is better looking then me,or better paid then me,or better qualified.I am a diminear for her in each and every respect.

But apart from all these allegations i placed on her,there something within me ,convincing me that whatever happens,i have to be there for her.What if she feels lonely?what if she is sad?what if she is hurt?what if she is in some trouble?
wouldn't she require me then?wouldn't she need me?

Though i know,whatsoever be the situation,whether she would need me or not..I still know that she is incomplete without me.I know each and everything about her which sometimes she doesn't knows.But still i had butterflies after knowing so many things?


And the obvious answer is...NO.

I never had felt a tinge in my stomach because i knew so many things..But it was because i wasn't able to grasp that one little thing which led me to think about all these stuffs.And that was....Why am i having these emotions?
I was more tensed to write about my love as i knew,if someone asks me about my feelings after placing so many allegations,I won't be able to answer.I knew,i couldn't think of any reason or any answer in reply to any queries related to my love for her.

Because,there is where the question lies.Not for anyone else,but for me from within.If there are so many odds about her,then still why????

WHY DO I LOVE HER?